it took about an hour for me to write this entry.
it is quite impossible to write down three years worth of emotions, but as i look back on my blog entries from February 2008, i have come to realize that i don't feel anything at all.
i don't feel angry. i don't feel upset. i don't even feel hopeful.
my feelings for that relationship has already died and it's not that i can't look back, it just means that i don't want to anymore.
there's finally nothing for me to look back to and even though i have what i could only wish for two years ago, i finally know what i'm worth.
and this time, i'm not just saying it just to pretend.