Friday, October 09, 2015

Avila



If you really took the time to think about it, you'd know it was a cliche that had no place in reality. She was the girl who ran away because she was too broken to function and instead of dealing with it head on, she escaped. She escaped through flattery, compliments, and the dream of starting over in a place where no one knew who she was. 

But escaping didn't equate to healing. Escaping was a band aid and for her to fully move forward, she needed to take a step back and deal with the wreckage that her choices left. 

She's well on her way, enjoying life on her own. But of course, at the end of the day, when it was just her and her thoughts,  she couldn't help but wonder what it could have been like if her fear didn't take over. She wondered how she could have connected with a stranger she's never seen face-to-face. She was a rational and logical human being, she didn't believe in anything as atrocious and yet, for once she did. She felt connected to him but knew it was probably just her. 

She sometimes wondered what it would have been like if she stayed at least one more week but the distance was the reality now. 

She would have wanted to stay in touch but she didn't like being clingy and being out of control, so she chose to stay away. 
It was better to preserve the memory instead of ruining it with reality. 

Reality calls once again and while she fought against it, she couldn't deny it now and so she started again. 

"Do not follow me! Let's just be fabulously where we are and who we are. You be you and I'll be me, today and today and today, and let's trust the future to tommorrow. Let the stars keep track of us. Let us ride our own orbits and trust that they will meet. May our reunion be not a finding but a sweet collision of destinies!" - Love, Stargirl

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